So what?

I am in a place of wondering again. Wondering about the "so what" that seems to linger after being Scripture, in prayer, in offering myself to the ministry I find myself in each day. Someone once said to me, "You seem to have so many questions."  I guess I do and it seems a good gift for me.  The questions seem to bring me to greater life. The questions emerge out of the cries of my heart and my deep longing for God. They come from longing to be the same person on the outside as I am on the inside. They come from no longer wanting to live out of the bondage of fear but to live the life I long for (John O'Donohue, To Bless The Space Between Us).  The questions, the longings speak to the deepest desire of my heart.  I long to let this desire for God to be the primary desire of my life, to stop putting lids on such desire, but to let it out, let it flow freely from my heart, to become words and places of life, love and beauty for for those in my path. So many times the stories of Jesus are all about people he encountered "along the road" when he and his disciples were on their way somewhere. He offered a touch, healing, words of love, life and truth. These stories evoke desire and longing in me. Something to notice.